My Family is Growing.

Well, it will be anyway, come May. I found out about a week & a half ago that my brother & his wife (Jordan & Allyson) are going to have a kid. This means my kid will have a cousin to play with - that is, if all goes well and according to the timeline I hope to follow. That would be nice, I want my little one to have cousins to play with (and siblings, too, of course!). So the DeKoekkoek clan begins to grow. Congratulations, Jordan & Al!

Telling Secrets

I've told a few people now, well a few more anyway. Pretty much all my close friends know my plan, as well as Mom, one uncle, a few people at work, and one woman from church. It feels good to tell people. The only thing is, I'm afraid to tell too many because I don't want anyone to try to talk me out of this. I know it sounds silly, because I know nobody could talk me out of it no matter what, but I still worry. I still don't have an apartment, so things are on hold. It's such a disappointment - I don't want to wait any longer than absolutely necessary to have my baby here with me. But I have to trust that there is a reason for the waiting, that waiting means that I'll be ready the same time my child is. It's the only thing that keeps me patient, that gets me sanely through the days and nights when I just want to scream with frustration. This is all going to fall together how it needs to, in order to make my family.