Starting Out

Well, this isn't exactly the way I originally pictured having a family of my own, but sometimes life doesn't really go the way we want, does it? I went & looked at an apartment tonight, it seemed almost perfect. Cozy place, nice quiet cul-de-sac. I hope it works out. Once I'm in a place of my own, I can apply to the agency, then set up the home study & get things moving. Now that I know I am going to do this, every day I don't have a child feels like my arms are aching. I feel so empty, knowing that my son or daughter could very well be out there already but they aren't here. I know it probably seems crazy to so many people, but I need to do this. I am ready to be someone's Mama. Now I just have to do what I have to do so I am approved to adopt. Then I can bring my baby home.