Telling Secrets

I've told a few people now, well a few more anyway. Pretty much all my close friends know my plan, as well as Mom, one uncle, a few people at work, and one woman from church. It feels good to tell people. The only thing is, I'm afraid to tell too many because I don't want anyone to try to talk me out of this. I know it sounds silly, because I know nobody could talk me out of it no matter what, but I still worry. I still don't have an apartment, so things are on hold. It's such a disappointment - I don't want to wait any longer than absolutely necessary to have my baby here with me. But I have to trust that there is a reason for the waiting, that waiting means that I'll be ready the same time my child is. It's the only thing that keeps me patient, that gets me sanely through the days and nights when I just want to scream with frustration. This is all going to fall together how it needs to, in order to make my family.